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Annals of Gay Sexuality 2015

The Spin Cycle: How to escape the apps when we're feeling lonely or sad

25/10/2016

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"There’s a vicious cycle that I’ve witnessed in my own life over the years. Often after a breakup I’d catch myself flipping from Grindr to Scruff, then Growlr to Recon, and Daddyhunt to GuySpy relentlessly... The more peculiar part of my app-hopping was that despite these enhanced feelings of depression and loneliness, I’d continue using the apps, day after day, compulsively. I felt as though I was trapped in a cycle that I couldn’t get out of because I was feeling so lonely."

In this article from last May, Mike Miksche describes a common experience of getting lost in the apps and internet when feeling down or lonely. And while we appreciate that forging stronger relationships helps shore up our mood and self-worth, that doesn't really help in the moment.

We wonder what we can do to escape the spinning when we're deep in it. Thoughts?

Check out the article and let us know.
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Stories We Love

24/10/2016

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Buzzfeed contributor and our new fave Tim Murphy posted a stunning piece last week. We can't seem to forget it.

A poignant personal narrative that reminds us about the importance of kinship in gay men’s communities. We’ve all felt lonely, isolated, and longed for connection. If we’re lucky, we found it, but perhaps not where we thought. Friends show up in the most amazing places and, even in the background of meth addiction, the magic of those moments persists. It’s a fallacy that everything that happens when using substances is essentially bad. Good can emerge, and perhaps be part of the inertia that prods us toward recovery.

Check it out on Buzzfeed.



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Rave review in Journal of Gay & Lesbian Mental Health

23/11/2015

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​...particularly comprehensive and exceptional.  [A] highly relevant and intimate examination of ​gay male sexuality. Indeed, this book should be considered as a representative introduction to gay men’s health and sexuality as it is lived.
​-Journal of Gay & Lesbian Mental Health  

We're grateful to Dr. Joshua G. Kellison for his well-written and cogent review of the first volume of AGS.  Read the full review on their website.


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Read all the stories in this collection. Especially if you’re young.

16/10/2015

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In this guest post, a young gay guy responds to AGS 2015, focusing his attention on contributor Michael V. Smith's chapter, Silence and Threat.

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Guest Post by Reed Karoline
Youth Voices


Silence and Threat by Michael V. Smith was not the story I was expecting to read in Annals of Gay Sexuality 2015. The subtitle, A Contemporary HIV Zeitgeist, gave me the idea that this would be a collection of sad stories by old gay guys who had lived through the AIDS crisis and were going to mourn the loss of friends. After all, I grew up after these times; I’m barely an adult myself, and all I’ve known about those times was that they sucked. A lot. But instead, the stories were much less mourning than they were a collection of individual stories about what it was like to grow up in these times.

But Silence and Threat is, I think, my favourite. Beginning with a story about the author as a kid who’s pushing the boundaries with a friend. Not going to lie, I’ve never played a game with anyone where you just mix-and-match your naked bodies, but it doesn’t seem to have worked out poorly for Smith. He talks about how this early experimenting gave him the confidence, the ability to “be vulnerable, to give in, opening [his] hand and releasing caution”. That gives him a way to connect with his first boyfriend, as well as everyone else he interacts with.

The other thing that made this interesting is honestly the sex. There’s no beating around the bush; Smith fucked some guys – actually, quite a few by his own count – and he doesn’t gloss over it. Stories of his first blow job and his first kiss (not in that order) are followed by the story of a bareback hook-up with a hot, hung cop. He mentions that he went bareback with his ex-boyfriend, and had kept his negative status mostly by being “really good at (and really into) blowjobs”, but let the cop fuck him anyways, and how for years he would jack off thinking about it.

And then, all of a sudden, Smith goes from a couple of random fucks here and there to having fucked, been fucked by, or sucked off somewhere around two thousand guys. I don’t even know how, in the age before Tinder and Grindr; I can’t so much as get a date, but he’s off fucking like a rabbit. Frankly, I’m a bit jealous. But the important part was not the huge number of hook-ups (although seriously, impressive); what I found more interesting was the warning that came after, about how up to three-quarters of those guys tried to do bareback, or some of them succeeded. To me, that’s insane. Again, I’ve grown up in the post-AIDS-crisis world, and every gay guy knows that condoms are vital at this point in time. But then again, they knew then, and still there was so much unprotected sex. And Smith explains the reason for it in a way that honestly is a little nerve-wracking:“They say they don’t want it, but when you get them alone in a quiet spot and someone’s cock is in the crack of someone’s ass, they nearly always forget their best intentions.” In the heat of passion, people forget about safety, they forget about HIV and the risks, they only remember that they want to fuck, and for those who have done bareback before, they remember that they want to fuck in the way that they find hottest. And that’s why it’s a bit scary: everyone knows that condoms aren’t fun; you know it, I know it, everyone knows that it dulls the sensation. And yet, most of us know that they’re necessary. But then again, we also know that exercise is necessary, but we frequently put off going to the gym when we have a Netflix marathon and a pizza in front of us.

The final poignant message of the story is a warning, about thinking that we are less than. Smith says that “All the teaching and shaming and common sense and knowing better of HIV-prevention are no match for my need to be wanted, to use sex as a short-term filler, or fixer, for a gay kid raised to think he was less than,” and I think for a lot of gay guys, both now and then, old and young, can empathize with that. We’re told by family and friends that we’re not as good as our straight counterparts in so many ways, and it’s so easy to shift to casual fucks and sexting as a way to feel better about ourselves. It’s such an easy thing to fall into, especially in the age of the internet, where an anonymous person around the world will copy and paste flirtations to you to get a picture of your ass, or your dick, or even a video.

That got very serious there. It’s true, and it’s the message I got from this story, but it’s not the whole story. Smith writes a great story about his sex life without once making it smutty, instead making it an interesting read about a perspective we rarely see on this time while also providing a warning. It’s entertaining, and definitely sexy to read about, to imagine that sort of sex life. But then he ends it perfectly, bringing it all back and making his last point: everything from the fuck with the police officer to the potentially thousands of other partners he traced back to his feeling of “make-me-feel-worthy”, and these are the kinds of stories that get people thinking.
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Read this story. Read all the stories in this collection. Especially if you’re young. I found perspectives of people who have lived lives that could have been my own, and how to avoid ending up with regrets like many of them. They’ll entertain you with the fun, sexy qualities of the lives of the authors while giving you some perspective on how necessary things like protection and self-worth are to keeping you safe. It never demonizes sex, either (thank God), unlike so many other stories like these. If you don’t want to read it for the message, and just want to read it for the sex, I really can’t blame you. They write it well. But it’s worth your time to get this perspective on people who’ve passed before you, and have a thing or two to teach you about it.


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The object of Reed's attention, AGS 2015 Contributor Michael V. Smith.
"I’ve grown up in the post-AIDS-crisis world, and every gay guy knows that condoms are vital at this point in time. But then again, they knew then, and still there was so much unprotected sex."
​"If you don’t want to read it for the message, and just want to read it for the sex, I really can’t blame you. They write it well." 
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Annals of Gay Sexuality 2015

15/10/2015

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Cover art for Annals of Gay Sexuality 2015

Cover art by Pablo Cáceres: Zietgiest (modified) 
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In and out

22/9/2015

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Our beautiful books are in stock at the Ethica Press offices in Vancouver, BC. Purchasers from the USA get their orders fulfilled by Fuego in Portland, OR, who adds sweet notes to your package.

Books are also available from your local bookstore through Ingram and across the international Amazon.com network.

Most importantly, join the conversation about the Contemporary HIV Zeitgeist by joining our Facebook group. Find the link from our Facebook page.

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Available today

14/9/2015

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The big release this Monday, September 14

11/9/2015

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Update

1/9/2015

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What a package

15/8/2015

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It was like waiting for a hook-up we thought would never arrive. But when the doorbell rang and a beardy courier guy in brown summer khakis handed over this package, we decided it was well worth the wait. The final book proof feels good to touch and it's very handsome. Just check out that gorgeous cover image!

Stay tuned for release dates and where to buy. The most up-to-date info is always at www.annalsofgaysexuality.com and on our Facebook page. 
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